he said something about miss care being "our responsibility"... I simply noted that it sounded as if we were parenting a child together. perhaps I had gotten too familiar too fast!
by the way, since this is directly related to the topic at hand... i think i'll be the one to handle the diplomatic relations between you and cb from now on.
[ A diplomatic way indeed of conveying that Tieria said he, "cannot hold a sane conversation with that man!!!" ]
[ This text is a little longer in coming. He doesn't generally mind if people know this particular tidbit, but at the same time he feels like he's nearing the threshold of how much he wants to share with Graham in particular.
A compromise, then--he won't say it in so many words, but it shouldn't be too hard to guess. ]
[ graham doesn't mind telling about himself, either - the only reason why he hasn't is because of the fear that it'd cause unnecessary concern and pity. he doesn't need any of that. ]
I wouldnt claim I know something unless it is from personal experience my friend though I must wonder now... if that is another thing we share.
[ and just like that, the educated guess evolves into the confirmed truth. graham doesn't reply right away because in truth, he doesn't know what he's supposed to feel. he doesn't want anyone to pity for him and can only imagine that neil feels the same. it's... just a shame, putting things into prospective. that war costs life and emotional strife. graham wonders if he'd gone in vain... but that can be saved for another conversation another day. ]
no, it is you and me both, neil. and I must say I am not certain if I feel comfort or sadness because of that.
[ "comforted" because he no longer feels alone; "sadness" because... well. for obvious reasons. ]
[ The confirmation isn't a surprise when it comes... but it's a shame all the same. For all that they may not have gotten along at every turn, he still finds himself wishing the man well. Or at least wishing things hadn't been cut short for him. ]
i know what you mean. all too well.
...but in the end, i guess it is what it is. you do what you can with life and you hope it made the impact you wanted.
even if it means they must survive in a world like this? truth is Im uncertain. that is why I asked... but what I *have* been doing is making the best of what is given to me. still I feel a distinct type of freedom here. a bird taken in by its prey spared of its life but at the cost of its wings.
no, i wouldn't choose to bring any of them to a world like this. i couldn't be so selfish.
the freedom you described doesn't sound very free. it's easy to think we haven't got room to complain in our situation, but it doesn't stop the dissatisfaction from bleeding through. especially when seeing the living come through.
for that last reason especially, I have to say no. i'm not content.
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he said something about miss care being "our responsibility"...
I simply noted that it sounded as if we were parenting a child together. perhaps I had gotten too familiar too fast!
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[ No he's not. ]
...did you, now? yeah, i can see how that could be seen as just a BIT forward.
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I must apologize regardlesss
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by the way, since this is directly related to the topic at hand... i think i'll be the one to handle the diplomatic relations between you and cb from now on.
[ A diplomatic way indeed of conveying that Tieria said he, "cannot hold a sane conversation with that man!!!" ]
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I am curious, stratos. do you (and mr. erde) still consider yourselves official members of CB?
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Still, Graham's question brings up some... unique issues. ]
huh. good question.
tieria has every intention of going back, so he doesn't have any reason not to.
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that answers that for mr erde, most certainly!
what about you?
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A compromise, then--he won't say it in so many words, but it shouldn't be too hard to guess. ]
i can't go back.
suppose i'd count as an unofficial member, then.
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can't go back?
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I perhaps know a thing or two about that actually
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...really, now?
from personal experience?
[ There, that shouldn't be prying too much. And if it is, he has every confidence Graham would shut him down. ]
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I wouldnt claim I know something unless it is from personal experience my friend
though I must wonder now... if that is another thing we share.
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i see.
there's only one thing i can think of that makes returning impossible. if i'm not wrong about that, then i have to ask...
i can't be the only one who expected something a little different out of an afterlife, can i?
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no, it is you and me both, neil. and I must say I am not certain if I feel comfort or sadness because of that.
[ "comforted" because he no longer feels alone; "sadness" because... well. for obvious reasons. ]
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i know what you mean. all too well.
...but in the end, i guess it is what it is. you do what you can with life and you hope it made the impact you wanted.
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I couldnt agree more
but once that is achieved, what does a man do when he is granted an afterlife?
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the chance to look back on those still on earth would be nice. ...hopefully even meet with those that have gone on before.
that would be my choice, at least. what would yours be?
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truth is Im uncertain. that is why I asked...
but what I *have* been doing is making the best of what is given to me. still I feel a distinct type of freedom here. a bird taken in by its prey
spared of its life but at the cost of its wings.
are you content, Neil?
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the freedom you described doesn't sound very free. it's easy to think we haven't got room to complain in our situation, but it doesn't stop the dissatisfaction from bleeding through. especially when seeing the living come through.
for that last reason especially, I have to say no. i'm not content.